Creative Spanko Wench Blog

Thought you’d like a little update.  I spent a few hours formatting and uploading some of my favorite stories to Satin and Leather.  The First Punishment (my personal favorite of all the stories I’ve ever written), and Marital Intimacy are just a few.  I never really realized just how prolific a writer I was until I started trying to build a site just for my writing. 

I’ve also added a new Gallery of drawings.  Some you’ve seen before.  Three for sure are brand new.  They’re what I spent most of Saturday & yesterday working on.  This week’s update on Bethany’s Woodshed will be a full 5 chapter story called The Book. It’s a lyrical journey about a blank book, and some illustrations that magically draw a book seller into her very own story and the realization of her dreams.  Here’s a sample for you….  Check out the Gallery’s main page for another.

On another note my bum has lost all its lovely marks, sigh ….. may have to do something to change that later this week… *g*

LOLOLOL!  I found a vender that sells the “classic american paddle ball paddles”  you know, the one that crackerbarrel stores used to sell???? Purchased in bulk these paddles are very reasonable (just over 4 bucks) and although they are still the same sturdy laminated heavier than silly party favor paddles, and extremely ouchie monsters they always were, the ones from this source are not laquered yet.  LOLOL!  Now, this gives me a very wicked idea … I wonder if heat pressing a readers choice of drawing on to and then signing and spray sealing the paddle wouldn’t be a sort of a neat readers write prize?  Yeah I know, I still have to ship the drawings requested by the writers who wrote for the last invitation… some stuff kind of took my attention and sidetracked my energies…  I finally hit the mail boxes etc store last week & bought large enough bubble wrap envelops.  With luck and ambition I’ll get them matted, packed up and on their way this weekend or maybe Monday. 

Or, I’ve always wanted to try woodburning.  I wonder if I stenciled one of my simpler drawings to the paddle & burned it into the wood signed & then sealed it, if folks might wanna buy one?  I used to carve wood a lot, burning the lines on a stencil can’t be that hard.  Maybe the shading wouldn’t be quite what it is on a drawing, but I bet it would be neat.  LOLOL.  Talk about occupational therapy for a recovering blog wench, huh?  Let me know what you think of the idea.  

on another note 

I’m kind of tired and disgusted with myself.  I gave myself another bad day regretting my opinionated mouth.  Someday maybe I’ll actually process the reality that others are neither *entitled* to nor should they be required to *hear* my snotty opinions when I get on my high horse.  I have not been particularly active as a blog surfer for the last several weeks, part of it was loneliness, feeling that I had no voice anymore, and part of it was venturing out into the actual proper official dating world again.  Then the other night I ventured out and came across something very sad on a blog I hadn’t been to in months.  A partner posted her sense of loss because her significant other had deleted his blog. It made me ache.  I understand the depths of depresion, self doubt, and self loathing that can prompt an impulsive act like that, what’s worse is I’ve been through the pain of having to decide to delete completely against my will, and I know this was not the 1st time down this path for this couple.  As I said, it made me ache. Then I came across a reference to that post on another blog, only this reference was not empathetic.  Vandaism was the reference made and a link was added to an old post on another blog that lambasted and villified another couple who once had a very popular and fun blog for deleting it.  That first post opined that deleting blogs was a kin to a serious interpersonal crime in the evolving culture of the internet, and while I may agree in principle with the basic premise, the medium is so young that none of us can even guess what very legitimate reason might motivate someone to delete a blog they’d invested heart and soul into never mind take hard positions stating it was never OK.  In the first instance, the couple had seperated and the one who retained custody of the blog couldn’t face it’s being there as an intact accessible reminder of something gone forever from their heart.  I had to side with her choice.  In fact the extreme sadness I felt understanding her reasons was a physical thing for me.  In this recent instance, I felt a similar physical reaction.  I am an internet vandal too.  A vandal of the worst kind.  I’ve gotten up in the morning and edited ill thought paragraphs, reworded things that were not saying accurately what I really intended to share, and then, based on legal advice responding to something I could never have predicted occuring, I deleted my whole blog.  I deleted my whole blog … I cut off a part of me.    I know the pain that comes with that choice, and it was particularly painful to trip over what seemed like such an cruelly insensitive reference.  It hit a very raw nerve.  Certainly the blogger couldn’t anticipate how painful it might be or how personal it could seem.  My reaction is my fault.

The blog world grows everyday though, and as it grows it’s getting more personal.  I completely understand the old guard pioneers who’ve made blogging an income source and business feeling the need to flex muscle and invoke their opinions even use their established position to bully just a bit with link power, but I don’t understand the inability to recognize that most bloggers are not in it for commerce, that we are giving much more personal pieces of ourselves, and as such, it’s value though not economic is very personal and prized.  I fully grasp that those who are in this as a business expect stability, but I have to point out that the medium has evolved in a direction that is simply not, and is very unlikely to ever again be compatible with this expectation.  Foot stamping, pointing fingers, grumbling and growling not withstanding … people - flawed, ordinary, unsophisticated in the rules of the comercial net - are blogging more and more - in fact almost all of the best spanking and erotic blogs are personal blogs now, and everyone of them is subject to deletion if unforeseen and unanticipated circumstances make this the blogger’s choice.  Vandalism has NOTHING to do with that choice MOST of the time, and the significant pain involved deserves more credit and respect. 

My attorney advised me to delete my blog until he could help me sort out where I stood legally.  I’ve paid him a lot of money.  I argued with him, I cried, I agonized and I mourned.  I still feel pain having had to destroy something I put so much into, and I know I will never get back the friends who felt betrayed by having done that, at the same time there was a reason for it.  Not a reason that a commerce model is ever going to agree with or accomodate, but a real reason non-the-less.  I understand why from a very personally real perspective.  Never a good reason no matter what the after the fact analysis opins … EVERYone has to live with now.  That 20/20 hindsight will forever be an impossible expectaion for the reality of now.

The thing is, the commerce model blogger finds posts and links the personal blogger out of necessity.  Their readers need the love of the subject matter MORE than we need follow the webmaster make money link to a pay site.  We loyal readers depend on this entrepreneurial hunter for new paths into our interests, and we love knowing the hunter’s into neat finds, not just stuff that nets income … s/he’s made it a lucrative business.  We have jobs and distractions that keep us from being able to be effective hunters so we depend on them. 

I shared my point of view without sharing any of the why’s.  I’m a snotty opinionated shit.  I know it.  I also have insights and wish I could do a better job of getting them out there as insights rather than snotty shit….  sigh…

I don’t judge anyone though OK…. I feel and tend to express from that….  Imperfect, flawed, me…

My bum hurts!  In case you wondered….

I do my best to make sure and keep up with NCIS although they’ve moved it off of Tuesday and I really hope I don’t loose track of it this coming season and manage to find it wherever it gets put.  Tonight I watched a montage of According to Jim episodes.  Once upon a tim I’d dismissed this show as just another aggeavating sitcom that focused on rude kids and useless parents, just as I’d a while before dismissed NCIS as a cop show without a meaningful story line…

Well tonight I turned off my brain and decided to just surrender to the evening.  Being tired and needing to regroup so I can do what needs doing tomorrow helped a lot.  On channel X there were back to back episodes of what I’d long ago written off as a waste of space TV show.  Perfect reason to shift to Animal Planet or National Geographic or Public TV.  Thing is, all their programing is reruns right now.  So, I let myself ease into passivity and put the remote down.  Know what?  I had a lovely time!  I laughed, smiled and truly enjoyed the characters.  This was not the cookie cutter nasty obnoxious ‘kids rule useless parents’ program it started out as.  It had grown, evolved and for the 4 episode aired tonight was more about parents and adults blundering through adult challenges … adult challenges. 

I had a very lovely evening doing nothing but enjoy TV.  What a sweet simple thing.

So far in two years there’s only one other TV show I’ve let myself get involved with.  Sure I watch & enjoy all the CSI shows - Vegas, NY & Miami, and I enjoy all the New detective, Forensic files & psychic detective shows on Court TV, not to mention ALL the Animal cops shows (Detroit, Houston, Miami & San Francisco so far), but I couldn’t for the life of me name a character on any of them … but I do really get a kick out of NCIS.

Why you may ask?  LOL.  Well let’s start with Mark Harmon … years ago when he first got featured in TV Guide, I think it was after or just before he’d burned out on ER and was getting known, he said something about his father’s hand being hard within the context of sharing that he’d been spanked.  In NCIS there are so many very sweet, very clean allusions to dominance, submission and just appreciating spanking…  - no laden sexual story lines like CSI has had … no judgmental agonies … - just some fun acceptance of possible diversity, and some very fun, even loving indications that some loved characters have some interest & desires.  Sure there’s some fun poked within the themes, it’s just that so far at least there’s been no pandering to the lowest common denominator as there has been when D/S and fetish has been broached by CSI.

With luck, NCIS will have no reason to betray the wonderful subtext of its character’s realtionships and selves, and will continue to grow and embrace them.  I really enjoy the way they’ve honored each character, grown each of them and embued them with little peices of real people, me among them …

LOL odd post, I know, but just a slice of thoughts….

Life is too iffy to get more explicit…. for now. 

Love ya’ll

patty

Hi there R & Tigger.  You guys are first to comment on this new spot.  In a few more weeks I should be done constructing.  Sheesh it’s a lot of work to build websites.  Fortunately I had lots of downtime at the airport today so I was able to get 9 of 13 chapters of No Going Back over on Statin & Leather.  While I’m probably going to change the account (website tonight is just too limited in it’s formatability and a bit aggravating with its persnickety steps.)  I got much more work to do scanning all my older drawings since I no longer have good electronic files for more than 200 of them.  It’s a chance to really up their quality though since when I first began drawing I had a cheapo scanner & paint was the only editor I knew how to use.  I put up a decent page of link on pattysgallery and managed to get some poems formatted & posted too.  I also managed to figure out a couple of short cuts.  Maybe save on a few keystrokes and save a minute or two per addition … LOLOL over the long run though as I learn how to do all this, just maybe I’ll save several hours getting all caught up.

Hey?  I apologize that the comments are on moderate.  I’m having trouble figuring out how to make them open.  In the control panel on the wordpress blog site it’s not hard, but on this interface for standalone sites it’s not quite the same.  I set it so that any comment with more than one link had to be moderatoed to avoid spam.  Maybe it’s 1 link??????  If anyone knows, lemme know OK.  If not, give me some time, I’ll figure it out.

I had a nice weekend by the way.  Too bad travel is in the equation, but hey, to meet nice people who share this kink somethings just must be.  We’re going to meet again in two weeks.  That’s very good because my bum is just plain sore.

It’s very official, the classic american paddle, once sold by crackerbarrel stores is far harder to take when weilded by a determined spanker than the vermont country store bath brush.  LOL!  You’re going to laugh, but I actually found myself relaxing after a very ouchie 20 minutes with hand, paddle, hairbrush & bathbrush, when I knew I only had a minute to go with the brush.  Then there were two principal type swats with a hefty school paddle with holes.  Oh my!

I’m getting whimpy I think.

May I just point out that there really needs to be a new word for cranky when two flights in one day spend more time taxying to the runway than they do in the air because of stupid snaffus at IAH.  The seats on those little Embraire commuter jets are just NOT spanked butt friendly.  BOTH my flights had to pull off the taxi way and idle for well over twenty minutes making 50 minute flights into 2 hour flights.  Arrrggh.  And not even a good people watching spot could I find.  No belts, no hands, no laps… instead I found a Chili’s and had water & fajita quesadillas & paid for wifi & updated as much of these sites as possible. 

But may I say, if you’re ever looking for a nice weekend excursion with hotel & airfare blended check out cheaptickets.com .  I got in a sore bum, an amazing dinner in a world renowned restaurant, some great shopping and stayed in a lovely historic 5 star hotel - not to mention saw the Da Vinci Files and ate eggs benedict in my room for an amazingly reasonable price.

I also got in some stimulating conversation about some stuff I normally stear clear of, politics & religion.  Oh my!  Being on the same page doesn’t diminish the edge by the way. 

Well, time to think about a shower and sleep.  Tomorrow’s a work day.

I’m sitting here in a gorgeous hotel room  somewhere in central TX.  The precise location to remain private for a number of reasons.  After a great day spent flying, shopping and having an amazing supper on Saturday, today, Sunday I’m going to get a spanking.  I’ve brought the old cracker barrel paddle, Fred’s old hairbrush and my Moose timer, he is bringing his bath brush, a school paddle and his belt. 

Saturday isn’t quit as good a day for flying in the voyeuer sense of the word.  In the whole line this time only one man was wearing a belt that he had to take off to go through TSA metal detectors, but he did have huge hands and a very gruff expression when he was told he had to take it off.  Yup, Shiver!  My butt tingled.  Short flights don’t have movies, and there was virtually no time to spend people watching so as a travel report this is pretty puny, but with luck it’s a lead in to a worthy spanking report later today.

Soon I will be OTK getting spanked and paddled for procrastination, over spending and just generally being a wench.  It promises to be a stimulating and memorable experience with someone I’ve taken much more care to get to know and trust.  This will be our first spanking though we’ve had several lunches and dinners and long conversations together.  This is the first of what he plans to be weekly events for the foreseeable future. 

I’m OK with that plan.  He comes to me every other week, and I come to him in between. 

Visually his lap is a perfect spanking lap.  Physically his hand is quite intimidating - broad and strong.  Man o man …. the clock ticks slow.

Hope ya’ll are having a good day.

 patty

Hi y’all it’s me again.  Just goes to show you you can’t lose a tarnished penny.  No matter what you do there’s it is.  LOL.

As you can see if you’ve found me, I’m in the process of rebuilding everything that was once of value on the old creative spanked wife blog. In the next month or so I should have all the essays, poems, stories and artwork restored to one of two regular web sites.  My stories and essays will be nested on www.satinandleather.com  and my artwork and the poems it prompted me to write will be nested on www.pattysgallery.com .  News about updates to both with be found here and on my portal page, www.creativespankowench.com .

Why so many different pages?  I own the domain names and decided to use them, and I wanted to create galleries and properly group my stories without having such a long links list to my stuff on my blog.  So once I get it all constructed, folks who just want art can find it quickly, those who want spanking stories can find them and all their chapters quickly.  All the pages will be as interlinked as I can make them given my current lack of skill when it comes to all things html & css.   

Godaddy.com is not the most user friendly host though they do assure protection of your personal info as the owner of a domain if you pay for it.  They nickle and dime you to death actually, so be warned.  Most of all I’m having to learn and troubleshoot simple stuff like how to upload a simple blog template, yeah it’s sounds simple when you read the how to instruuctions… just try it when you have a blind control panel that doesn’t allow file uploads to specific folders from within.  Uploading to wp-XXXXXX/XXXXX may work for some folks but not me, at least not yet.  It annoys me no end that there’s no page editor in their control panel not even for a premium account.  EVERY little change has to be made on my laptop and uploaded.  Not to mention that unless I keep and pay for my old host in addition to this new one, I can no longer host unpublished images that I can hot link to my blog or a forum.  OK so I have to maintain the most current version of my site here which is probably sensible, but it also requires me to master a program instead of using a nice simple wsywig edit page.  Yeah, yeah, I know, just adapt and do it.  But just so you know there are much nicer hosting services that hold your hand as you grow and learn, and offer unlimited bandwith and e-mail for under a hundred dollars a year.  Just so ya know…..

 Oh by the way, I’m going to get a spanking soon and boy do I need it! 

Welcome here to this new homeb to all my friends and all new readers.

Love you all

patty