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Hi y’all.
I’m back from traveling and winding down from the energies expended from almost non-stop going (work, then fun, then more work with longer hours). I started writing about sailing, a nude recreation experiment and a couple of spankings while I was in the middle of experiencing them all. I’ll get back to the account and post it after I recover a bit. I’m exhausted, and yet mentally wound up. I will say that the sailing (LOL no, there was no bare bum & I stayed fully clothed) was amazing, the spankings were terrific and the nude recreation experience was brief, non-threatening and surprising - more on that later.
It’s possible that I may have just experienced the last spankings of my life and that I’m now entering a phone and e-mail only relationship with my buddy though. Life throws curves, and the circumstances that made the past 18 - 20 months of getting together possible are changing for both of us as this year evolves. I’ve been feeling sad and have shed some tears thinking about it, but ultimately I must say that I’m incredibly blessed for having what I’ve had. At this point neither of us know if getting together again will be possible. If we can, we’ll make it happen together again, but both of our life situations may have already trumped our hands.
I’ve just entered my 49th year on earth this month, this week actually. My gemini personality has my mind flipping back and forth. Life’s good, life’s sometimes hard - I’m blessed, I’m going to experience another loss… All in all I think my heart will choose blessed and that will be where everything settles out. - please excuse me if it takes me a while to get there all the way….
Stay tuned… 
May 29th, 2009 at 4:44 am
Patty, dear girl, life does throw us some curved balls, we have to deal with them as best we can.
You handle yours better than most.
I sometimes wonder if I’ll ever spank anyone again.
But I survive!!!
Love and warm hugs,
Paul.
May 29th, 2009 at 1:56 pm
Patty, whilst myself and my wife were long married, we were both beyond our 49th years when we realised this aspect of our relationship and embarked on this road of discovery which is now entering a further powerful dynamic. Don’t ever say never - you are a talented, sensuous, erotic person. If you weren’t you could never have produced your lovely perceptive drawings. Without diminishing your grief for things past, I am willing to believe that you still have a great future to live.
May 29th, 2009 at 4:12 pm
Last spankings of your life? You are only 49! Don’t give up hope on it. Heck, 49 is young enough that you might have another DD marriage in your future.
I’m so sorry to hear that your friend will be out of reach, and changes are always hard. Good luck and God bless.
Amanda
May 29th, 2009 at 7:45 pm
Yep Paul, the curve balls and wondering about what will be are always going to be there. Trick is not wallowing in the worry and fear or even reality of them. I’ve done that too much in my life.
Welcome here Master Retap. Thank you for the kind comment about my drawings. Good for you and your wife daring to embark on your journey. Far too may of us can’t bear letting those closest to us “in” out of fear. I’m not thinking too far into my future at the moment.
Hey there Amanda, yeah at 49 I’m a “kid” according to my buddy and his friend. I’m at peace with the possibility that I won’t be spanked again. Right now I can’t imagine finding another man who loves the way I can’t help giggling when the spanking is most intense, or someone who listens to my worries day to day, gives me advice and lets me argue until I’ve discovered my own peace.
Honestly, I wish I’d said it better, but, I’m not as sad about the possibility that I’ve had my last spanking as I am about the possibility that my buddy and I have fallen over a life changing ‘nadir’ and shared an ending we should have, but did not see coming. I can’t see myself betraying him or what we’ve shared by seeking anyone else right now. He’s as good as it gets ya’ know? I’m keeping him as a ‘bestest friend’ until I can’t anymore.
May 29th, 2009 at 9:14 pm
Dear Patty;
I’m sorry about your buddy and the changes it will make in your life. Retep and Amanda both said it well so I’ll not duplicate.
I will comment; When I was widowed, long ago, I decided not to burden myself with grief, but to consider my life as an adventure with a new phase starting at that time. It has had joy, sorrow, grief,a 3-month marriage, and various highs and lows. We don’t know what the future will hold for any of us, but whether we seize it or endure it, it will be the future. Don’t let it defeat you! It sounds as though you are pretty much on track, and I have no doubt but that you will persevere. Have faith in GOD and try to keep your sense of humor. Enjoy what you can, and endure what you must.
Blessings and happiness,
George
June 1st, 2009 at 12:56 pm
Hello Patty,
I hope that my name in your mailbox is not unwelcome. I regret the way our relationship ended so abruptly (mostly my doing, though it’s never completely one person’s “fault,” is it?)–and for that I am very sorry.
Delighted however, to see that you did try, try again, as the saying goes, and that you seem to have been the recipient of many good spankings and intimacies since last we spoke. I hope that your buddy remains as your ‘bestest friend’ (as you said.)
Enjoyed all the drawings I saw that you’ve done in the past couple years. I so admire your talent. I’m still keeping my hand in it as well, but I’m years behind ya’ in developing my skills!
Well, just wanted to say I’m glad you’re alright. And to tell you that things will work out for you somehow (because Providence deems that they always do!) I sincerely doubt–despite what your horizon looks like at present–that you’ve had your last spanking. For someone such as yourself that would indeed be a cruel fate!
May God richly bless you now and always,
John
June 4th, 2009 at 7:52 pm
Thank you George. I like the blessings best, and you know what, even the things we ‘endure’ end up being blessings. Every notice that?
John, you will always be welcome. I’m content.
:) patty