Creative Spanko Wench Blog

OK so I told y’all that I’m working “The Secret.”  I’ve watched the DVD and I’m downloading the weekly lessons and I’m enjoying the palpable shift in energy that comes with just a few weeks of trying to redirect my thoughts.  It’s not likely that you’ll never again read a ‘patty rant’ here, though I do hope that when you do it will come from a place of humor again.  Some of you may remember those days?  When I used to simply observe the silly irritations of everyday life the way I experienced them from a place of funny retrospection.  The primary message of “The Secret” is that whatever your thoughts are focused on feeds the energy drawn to you.  Think negative thoughts & you will draw them, think positive thoughts & you will draw them….  example:  think ‘I don’t want to be poor.’ and being poor becomes the energy you draw; think ‘I will be rich’ and being rich is ithe energy you draw.  There’s a bit more to it, but essentially that’s the basic message.I’ve had a few of those draw negative energy days recently, but I’ve also had a raging kidney infection that made me practically catatonic for several days last week.  I’ve also been bruising deeply with barely a touch.  I had a ton of lab work done last week, and while nothing points in any serious direction, I’ve been taken off the once a month arthritis medicine I’ve been on so that when I go up to Houston for my bi-annual breast cancer check up, the high but non-functional platelet count, low H&H and elevated white count with slightly abnormal MCHC, will either be resolved, or if not be able to be interpreted without a drug effect.  I already know it’s the drug.  I have none of the sense of foreboding that came a few years ago when feeling that lump made my blood run cold.  Even so, I’ve been feeling like crap for the last 10 days.  I’m sorry that’s made me quiet.  Thank goodness for Levaquin.  Here’s a frightening though for y’all.   I’m BaaaaaacK.  LOLOLOLOLOLOL!

I enjoyed a full day at work today and even joked with the CEO.  We had to talk about some potential issues that some external scruitinizers who are coming down to see us soon will probably flag.  He laughed and said “what, you mean because X has no spine?”   I had to laugh too, because he was right, then I chuckled and told him I was working ‘The Secret” and had to think about that from the positive.  He wasn’t familiar with the secret, so I gave him a quickie synopsis.  I closed with this; “I want the respect of the medical staff, I can have the respect of the medical staff, I deserve the respect of the medical staff, and what’s more I am operating now as though I already have the respect of the medical staff, and if I keep that in the forefront of my though process and approach, within 30 days I’m going to begin to see rewards.”  He laughed, raised his eyebrows and said “30 days?”  I had to laugh & smile too.  Stranger things are possible right?

Then at lunch I had a neat one on one chat with one of the folks I usually enjoy lunch with, but almost always we dine with a huge crew.  I love her because she’s one of those cozy happy people who lives a whole life outside work.  She crafts, paints, slumps glass and she is totally involved in  her family.  Today no body joined us.  I mentioned “the secret,” and how I was really going to try and live it, and she laughed.  “Oh you mean Affirmation?”

I agreed with her they were probably related, and then she proceeded to share with me her ‘affirmation’ experience.  It involved colors and images.  Her daughter had just broken up with a boy friend (not something my friend was at all upset about by the way) and she sensed her daughter’s loss, so she found a photo of a married couple and mounted it on yellow paper so she could contemplate it with her daughter in mind every day.   She laughed when she shared that the only picture she could find was a bride & groom who were the same height.  She knew her daughter wanted a taller mate, but guess what?  In les than a year her daughter met a soul mate & is now married 21 years to a man the same height as she is.  The other ‘affirmation’ image she laughed and *warned*  me about was the house she pressed on red paper for herself.  She wanted a home with a pool.  The photo she found was of a home with a pool and the home owner was cleaning the pool.  Not even a year later they got such a home, and they could only afford to care for it themselves.  I had a huge belly laugh today when she described the work involved in pool self cleaning for two adults who work very long hours, and how their sadly neglected pool ended up losing them equity on the home.  She told it with such humor.  Her message?  ‘Be Careful what you ask for/wish for/envision for yourself, you just might get it as is.’

I’m not about to let myself be derailed from the “I ask for”  “I can have”  “I deserve to have”  “I’m already living it,”  approach, though.  It feels right and intelligent.

Honestly the only thing I want that is out of the ordinary is regular appropriately motivated spankings.  What an affirmation that would be huh?  Patty get’s her bare bottom spanked regularly, often and for every appropriate reason?

LOLOLOLOLOLOL

Thanks y’all for being here with me.  I am grateful for all of you, grateful for your support, your loyalty, your friendship.

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