The Secret?
The Secret
This basic truth of life is recently being marketed as a “secret’ known only by a select few, and even being withheld from us by the powerful. For most of us, it’s always been there, though it’s been communicated and imbued with differing degrees of power. I admit fully that having my focus pointed to it with more force lately has helped me gather and even regain strength, but I must say that none of this is news.
The wonderful most satisfying possibilities of life have been the fodder for probably ever happy dream, and just maybe it’s been the wind beneath the wings of every worthy and lasting success. I’ll even ask for the things I want;
- A man who loves me, believes in and values the things I do; that must include spanking and DD.
- A job that fully uses my skills and a leadership team that values them.
- A secure home where all the little things that touch me and have value are visible to those closest to me, and where I can reciprocate – this includes all of my family, not just the man who shares my bed.
- An outlet for my written and drawn art that brings emotional and significant economic prosperity.
- To live to see sexual, erotic and artistic freedom become real.
- To eiither earn (#1) or win enough money before I am 55, so that absolute comfort with all of the above is possible before God calls me home.
That’s 1st step of achieving “The Secret.” Those are the things I want. I’ve actually asked for them in kind of a round about ways all my life, so, even so, there they are. I wrote them down; the 6 things that could make Patty whole. 6 things.
Next thing is to believe I can have them…
Goodness gracious! Whether they are mine or not, I know there are literally 100’s of men who believe in DD, and who like me just because I speak their language. I’ve been blessed to find someone new who loves me because God’s let me find my way under his skin…. Time will tell about #1, but truth is it’s beyond past a given….
Let’s leave my job out there. My insecurities are too extreme at the moment for me to see any kind of plan at work… just life, unreasonable expectations and impossible achievement for one person….
- I see it coming…. MMMM
- Lots of readers, lots of art lovers, almost no payers, but then I’ve only bee able to find limited outlet, 99% restrict explicit content…. Do I have to create an explicit place myself, and when I do, will my friends welcome everyone?
- See # 5
- I would like to earn enough through my internet spanking work that I could write & draw erotica and not have to do anything else to make ends meet. I’d like to be comfortable enough that enjoying the internet and traveling to advance my work was easy/fun/tax deductible. I certainly deserve it…. I really do!
I’ve asked, and I hope I can have and most especially deserve each of these things….
The next tenet of the secret that it’s supposed to absolutely ensure it’s success in our lives is that we live as if we have already received. OK so here I go, I deserve and will have everything I’ve asked for and believed I deserve. I’m going to rehearse then live my life of answered prayers.
Just so it’s clear I’ve already been blessed by so many answered prayers and blessed surprises. That there could be more for me fills me with a wonderful sense of warmth and encouragement. Money is the only elusive actually – enough so everything works right will do, OK????
To the man my secret may motivate…. Spank me please. Love me and as you do expect me to be accountable. Understand my moods and give them just credence.\
I’ve got a bit more to say about the true relevance of this whole idea when it comes to 2 month olds & 2 year olds with incurable diseases… but that’s for another day. For now I’ll go will the me factor, and hope it’s got power…. J
Love patty
April 22nd, 2007 at 9:37 pm
To the woman I love…
I do promise to give you my love, and to spank you, and to do my utmost to understand your moods and give credence to them. May God grant me wisdom to achieve this.
I also pray that somehow your tremendous talents may come to be a source of income for you to bring you the level of comfort you seek in this life. I agree wholeheartedly that you indeed deserve it. I think your regular readers here will attest that you have been a beacon to many on their journey of dealing with this desire, this lifestyle, this fetish, this thing–whatever way you want to put it or whatever word you want to use to describe it. You have been like a lighthouse to many a weary sailor, an island of acceptance in an ocean of reressiveness.
You know well that I believe in the Law of Attraction. And, that “The Secret” as it is currently being put forth has indeed been around forever under many guises… the simplest of which might be–positive thinking. Dr. Norman Vincent Peale has been a modern day Saint in my book… and his message of positivity, gratitude and hope have been a source of great comfort and inspiration to me over the years.
Same for Dr. Wayne Dyer, and Marianne Williamson… to name two others who are still alive and spreading th good news… there are really so many prophets of hope. The challenge to all of us is to believe and follow the message in the circumstances of our own lives… and apply the tenets of hope and faith and positive expectation to the particular problems which each one of us faces in the life where we find ourselves. Every one of us has the potential to be great, to be the best person that we can possibly be, to be the sons and daughters of Our Father in Heaven. We are that, but sometimes it feels safer or easier to hide our light under a bushel basket, or to settle for a life less worthy than th one He calls us to… The Lord wants the best for us. We have to be willing to share that vision and work passionately toward it’s fulfillment.
So, what’s on my list? You made one, and I will as well.
1. I want to know and do–God’s will.
2. It’s my prayer to have one woman to give my love to for all my days (or for all of hers–whichever of us should be called first…)
3. There’s no place on earth I’d rather live and die than on Maui.
4. To one day get to a place with my art where working at anything else is no longer an economic necessity.
5. To be fit and strong well into my old age–until it is my time to die.
It was wonderful to talk with you again tonight on the phone, Patty. The emails and phone conversations we share in the months and weeks leading up to our first emabrace have to tide us over…
Love,
pJaOtHtNy
(John)
April 23rd, 2007 at 10:26 am
Patty, I doubt that I can say it better than John.
Yes yours was the first blog that I read, that helped me realise that I wasn’t alone.
My secret is, that love rules all, that we need to be grateful and aware of the gifts that The One gives and that like it or not, we will be at-one with the One, everything else follows from this. Positive thoughts, positive feelings, positive doings, this is what keeps me going since my beloved moved on, this is what keeps her alive in my heart and mind.
I hope dear Patty that your dream of a life with John becomes truth.
Love and warm Hugs,
Paul.
April 23rd, 2007 at 4:34 pm
The secret of life is that you deserve everything you wish for:You just need to get to the point where you believe that yourself.
April 23rd, 2007 at 7:11 pm
Wow you guys. You have invited us into your lives, dreams and hopes. You have shared laughs, loves, sorrows and hopes. Patty you helped me realize this thing we do is natural and right. I feel blessed to be in your company and wish only happiness and love (and a warm bottom)for you two. Patty thanks for all you have done for me personally, you will never know how much you have helped me. John I know that you know what a wonderful lady you have in this beautiful person. Bless you both and know that you have a true friend here up north.
Love to both
Jim
April 23rd, 2007 at 8:05 pm
John, I have not felt so safe trusting anyone the way I’ve trusted you in more than a decade. I can’t really say more now. I’ve got work to do and personal promises to keep between now and July. Time is our friend and ally, that’s my first real request - I want you, I can have you, I deserve you, I already have you….. truthfully it’s ‘We enjoy each other, we can smile and wait out the chatter things that tend to *make the glaze,* we deserve happiness with each other, and, we’ve already found all of it….. That’s where my heart is now….
Just so you know, I didn’t believe you were possible. I lived as if my past was all there could be for me. So now, as I keep trying to work to make amends for that, I hope you will understand. I Love you. I need you. You are the most amazing person to ever reach in and touch me.
& hey *g* the proper spelling is JpOaHtNty. You always come 1st, you always Lead. Please?
Paul Your positive thoughts have kept me alive, at least on line, and actually in too many of those lost lonely moments by myself. You’ve always been there, and I think maybe you’re one of the only people who really understood why I needed to bring Fred to life again. I love you, and it is my fondest wish that I will find a way to get to England to thank you, hug you and tell you this in person.
Yes Jeff you know it. We all need to believe in ourselves.
Jim you’ve made me cry… not a sad cry either. I’ve done it a lot lately. For so, so, so long I wouldn’t even let myself hear the thank you’s from folks who thanked me and appreciated my messages from before I confessed that I was a widow and all the things I’d been sharing were history. My shame and the outcry of disgust was all I could see. I’d feared it for so long actually, I think when it came it was a kind of blessing. That’s past now. Thank you for your faith. Thank you!
April 23rd, 2007 at 9:01 pm
Patty:
I am so happy that you have come as far as you have! I’m also happy that you have found John. I hope that he will love and cherish, and spank when needed, you for many years to come.
I hope that now you will continue your writing. I have enjoyed it very much. Yours and John Benson’s are among the best, as is the work of Mary Catherine Whitney! Add to the works you have started, and new ones will be welcome.
Your drawings are excellent too. You have much talent. I hope to see more evidence soon.
I think you know this, but remember, GOD is in control! Nothing sneaks up on Him! May you be richly blessed in your future life and find complete happiness!
April 23rd, 2007 at 9:33 pm
Oh my George. Yes I do know He is in control. He’s made it too clear to me lately, so I’m going to stop pressing and let Him have His way.
You put me with John Benson & Mary Catharine… oh my! how NEAT! As folks float and find what they like, I sincerely hope my stuff comes up free of all but what it is… freely given completely in tuned spanking erotica. Thank you!
April 26th, 2007 at 3:46 pm
Patty,
Now you’re changing more of my beliefs by making me feel like maybe I can be happy again, come to true grips with this disability, find a man who loves me for who I am and to able somehow to really make a difference in other people’s life.
You’ve already helped me so much and all I can do is say thank you
Love,
Becca